Mood: Blurry ...
Music: "Boondocks Saints Theme" - Irish Drinking Songs

Nah. Not really lonely. I'm like the most unloneliest person in the world, because even when it seems like I have nobody, I have somebody.

I have me. And I have God.

That's enough to sustain me even through the loneliest of times.

Of course ... friends help tremendously, too. XD

I was doing the random Friendster check - and I realised that a lot of people I've known in my life have Friendster accounts. Gah! If I were to add each and everyone of them, no doubt I'd have a helluva lot more than the pitiful 30-odd people on my f-list.

But meh ...

Not that I hate them or anything. I don't. They might hate me, because let's face it, when I was in primary and secondary school, I was the most unlikeable of unlikeable of people. I was just horrible. HORRIBLE!

But people change. I changed. I grew up, you see, as people inevitably do.

I'm still not adding them. Mainly because they'd probably take one look at my Friendster profile and go - wtf? Why's this girl contacting me all of a sudden?

Nah. Save me the trouble and spare them the hell.

*evil grin*

Besides ... they don't know I changed. They don't know how I've changed. For all I know, they probably still think of me as that weird, unlikeable, overweight drifter who always pretended to be something she wasn't.

Man ... was I an IDIOT!

I'm happier now. I've realised that I should never have worried about what people thought of me back then. I shouldn't have tried to be someone I wasn't, because in trying to be that someone, I was miserable.

Now I know who I am. And I'm so much, oh so much happier.

I fit. I don't care where I fit, I just fit. So what if I'm not overly popular, or have a million friends on Friendster, or am crowned Prom Queen? I don't care about that. I might have at one point ... oh so long ago ... but I don't give a damn now.

I'm happy. And that's all there is to it.

Sure, I'm stressed. And sure, my life's full of the rottenest shit ever. But I'm still happy. Because finally, I have found my place in the world.

And I'm staying in it.

So here's to those of you who are feeling happy. Here's to those of you who were losers in high school but are winners now. Here's to those of you who hated who you were but now love yourself for yourself.

And here's to those who dared to trample you down and destroy you ... those who, until now, still haven't outgrown the sick desire to be condescending and rude to those they believe to be "less popular" ... for them, I have only two words:

SCREW YOU!

As for myself, I'm sorry. I'm sorry to those I hurt back in school for being a real pain. I'm sorry for being such an ass. I'm sorry for being ... well ... un-me.

Now I'm me. And now I'm happy.

So yeah ...

YAY FOR ME! ^_^

Chin Yen, Elaine, Wen Jing ... par-tay at the peak first week of December! Uni gang ... MALACCA TRIP AT THE END OF EXAMS!

Sean, Mark ... more girly chats. You owe me.

Yan Lin ... we can both survive. We've done it before. We shall do it again. And then, when we meet again, we'll go out and get drunk and wasted. XD

Yep, I'm happy.

Laterz!

~ Kat ~